We went fishing this morning with my mom. I was so on edge, ready to break down at any moment, and after about five minutes in my moms car, I lost it. I think she asked if Junior was in a bad mood, and I just started bawling.
Then I spent most of the rest of the day crying.
But, I feel better being able to talk things over with my mom. She offered to try and help us, but I can't let her. She has enough going on right now, she doesn't need to worry about my problems. That was why I didn't want her to know in the first place.
I am still not sure what tomorrow will bring.
I still don't know how we are going to get through this.
But I know we WILL get through it.
And I KNOW that I have so many things to be thankful for, because there are so many people who have less than we do.
I am blessed to have family, and friends, who listen and offer words of wisdom.
I have my health, and my kids are healthy, and Junior is healthy, and employed.
I am contributing, and there should be a google update soon, and hopefully I will make more money after that...I have my fingers crossed for 3's on my blogs...not this one, though. This is where I vent, and I don't network this one like I do the others.
I know there is a brighter day on the horizon...I just need to get there.