I have lost a total of 72 pounds. I can not believe it!
I am trying so hard to lose another 50 more, and then I will be where I want to be. It's easier now to see that it might be possible since I am already more than halfway to my goal.
Go me!
Showing posts with label weight issues. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight issues. Show all posts
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Wiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!
So....I love the wii fit. LOVE IT! I have been doing it pretty regularly, and I have lost almost a pound. I know...it's not much, but it's a start. I gained a little, about seven pounds, between Thanksgiving and New Years, so I am working really hard to lose that. I am also making an effort to eat a little better, and as soon as we get back into a routine around here, I am going to start dieting. I don't remember if I mentioned this anywhere...maybe on FB...but they did away with Bob's position at work. That means no more set hours, no more weekends off. He will go back to working different hours all the time, and he's kind of stressing about it. I think it will be a good thing. Right now, as much as I like him being home in the evenings and weekends, we never have time for just us. With these new hours, we may actually have more time to spend together, which is going to be nice.
Anyway, back to the wii fit. I have been trying to do different things every day, but the one think I always do is the step routine. I do it for thirty minutes, and then spend another thirty minutes boxing, or doing kung fu...oh, and they have this obstacle course that is kicking my ass, but I love it! I am usually dripping with sweat by the time I finish, which is great. There is actually a site dedicated to moms who are losing weight with the wii, and I think I might join in on some of the forums and see what other moms are saying. I have a hard time putting myself out there, though, which is shocking, right, since I have so many blogs....but it's the one on one that I have problems with. I want to stay motivated, though, and finally get some of this weight off. Losing the 50 pounds over a year ago and keeping it off is a huge accomplishment for me. It tells me that I am finally learning how to keep it off instead of gaining it all, plus some, back. So, I am encouraged that if I lose more, I will be able to keep that off too. Fingers crossed, right?
I have also been having issues with my dang wisdom tooth again. This time, though, I have decided to go have it pulled. We have already filed our taxes, and our money should be in within the next two weeks, so I will finally have the money to have it removed. Now I just need the guts to do it. I am such a chicken. Plus, I know any dentist who looks in my mouth will know it's been many, many years since the last time I've been. I don't want to be judged, I just want to be pain free.
We didn't end up going to therapy last week because of the snow, but we did go today. Elizabeth asked Bob how he was doing since his dad's death, and to be honest, he's been okay. He had a moment Sunday when he got upset, and I knew that something was bothering him. Turns out, it was my dad and his friend Duane's dad. Let me back up...Friday night, I was on facebook, when all of a sudden my computer was attacked, and when all was said and done, I could not get on the internet. I called my dad for help, and he told me to run scans and stuff, but nothing worked. So Saturday morning, he called and asked if I wanted him to come look at it. Of course I said yes, and within thirty minutes he had me back online. My dad rocks. Then later that afternoon, he went to help his friend do something for his dad, and seeing them interact, on top of seeing my dad come and rescue me, upset him because he never had that kind of relationship with his dad, and now he never has the opportunity to. I told him that he can't change the past, but he can continue his awesome relationship with Ryan, and know that there will never be a day when Ryan feels about him how he feels about his dad. Make sense?
But, other than that, he has been doing really well. And I think I have rambled enough. Time to go check facebook and then call it a night. Hope you all had a good one.
Anyway, back to the wii fit. I have been trying to do different things every day, but the one think I always do is the step routine. I do it for thirty minutes, and then spend another thirty minutes boxing, or doing kung fu...oh, and they have this obstacle course that is kicking my ass, but I love it! I am usually dripping with sweat by the time I finish, which is great. There is actually a site dedicated to moms who are losing weight with the wii, and I think I might join in on some of the forums and see what other moms are saying. I have a hard time putting myself out there, though, which is shocking, right, since I have so many blogs....but it's the one on one that I have problems with. I want to stay motivated, though, and finally get some of this weight off. Losing the 50 pounds over a year ago and keeping it off is a huge accomplishment for me. It tells me that I am finally learning how to keep it off instead of gaining it all, plus some, back. So, I am encouraged that if I lose more, I will be able to keep that off too. Fingers crossed, right?
I have also been having issues with my dang wisdom tooth again. This time, though, I have decided to go have it pulled. We have already filed our taxes, and our money should be in within the next two weeks, so I will finally have the money to have it removed. Now I just need the guts to do it. I am such a chicken. Plus, I know any dentist who looks in my mouth will know it's been many, many years since the last time I've been. I don't want to be judged, I just want to be pain free.
We didn't end up going to therapy last week because of the snow, but we did go today. Elizabeth asked Bob how he was doing since his dad's death, and to be honest, he's been okay. He had a moment Sunday when he got upset, and I knew that something was bothering him. Turns out, it was my dad and his friend Duane's dad. Let me back up...Friday night, I was on facebook, when all of a sudden my computer was attacked, and when all was said and done, I could not get on the internet. I called my dad for help, and he told me to run scans and stuff, but nothing worked. So Saturday morning, he called and asked if I wanted him to come look at it. Of course I said yes, and within thirty minutes he had me back online. My dad rocks. Then later that afternoon, he went to help his friend do something for his dad, and seeing them interact, on top of seeing my dad come and rescue me, upset him because he never had that kind of relationship with his dad, and now he never has the opportunity to. I told him that he can't change the past, but he can continue his awesome relationship with Ryan, and know that there will never be a day when Ryan feels about him how he feels about his dad. Make sense?
But, other than that, he has been doing really well. And I think I have rambled enough. Time to go check facebook and then call it a night. Hope you all had a good one.
Monday, October 18, 2010
I Love This Time Of Year
It's almost Holiday time, and I love it. I wish our weather would reflect Fall...we have been in the 80's for the past week or so. I want the cool days, and the changing leaves....
For me, the Holiday season always starts with Ryan's birthday party. We do it a couple of weeks early sot hat we can make it a Halloween party. Then his actual birthday comes, then three weeks later is Thanksgiving. A week and a half after that is Brandi's birthday, and then three weeks later we have Christmas and New Years.
I love the time I spend with my family this time of year. I love that all our celebrations focus around the food. For a fat girl, this is not a good thing, but I have given myself permission to enjoy myself. If I gain a little weight back, it will be okay. I have learned in the last year and a half that I will fluctuate. I know now that I can maintain a weight...I just have to get to a healthy weight to maintain. I am extremely proud that I have kept off the 50ish pounds I lost over a year ago.
I am pretty excited about Ryan's party Friday night. I am going to dress up a little bit, which is something I don't usually do. Brandi and I both got the same little purple witches hat, but she is wanting to go with green face makeup, and I am going to do a little purple sparkling. It's going to be so much fun! I have lots of food to prepare, and even more cleaning to do. But it will all be worth it!
We went to therapy last week, and talked through some things. Our therapist just got her first real office, and I want to bring a little plant as an "office warming" gift next session, but I was a little worried that that might be a tad inappropriate. I asked my mom, and she said it's not; that it would be a nice gesture. Our therapist did her whole office black and red, so I have to find a plant that will match that. Any suggestions? My mom has a pot she painted that she thinks would be perfect...I just need to buy the plant.
Um...let's see...what else has been going on???? My mom's kitchen is coming along. It is taking a lot longer to finish than we thought it would, but Junior is doing all of the work himself (with Ryan's help). He's doing a great job...it just takes a while. It would take less time if the stuff my mom's buys wasn't defective...Junior went to install the sink, and it was warped. He got a new sink, went to install the faucet, and one of the clamps was broken so it leaked. Mom got a new faucet, but the hoses he bought for the other sink didn't fit this one, so he needed new ones...if he didn't have to continually run to the store he might make some progress! lol!
I guess that's about it. I have a lot to do before Friday, including some reviews on my other blogs, so it might be next week before I get back over here. Or even visit the few of you who read this blog. So, have a great week, and I'll see you all soon!!
Oh, wait, I almost forgot...I am rocking the water thing! It's all I drink when I am home. I bought a variety of flavor packets to put in it, so I am not bored with it. Yet.
For me, the Holiday season always starts with Ryan's birthday party. We do it a couple of weeks early sot hat we can make it a Halloween party. Then his actual birthday comes, then three weeks later is Thanksgiving. A week and a half after that is Brandi's birthday, and then three weeks later we have Christmas and New Years.
I love the time I spend with my family this time of year. I love that all our celebrations focus around the food. For a fat girl, this is not a good thing, but I have given myself permission to enjoy myself. If I gain a little weight back, it will be okay. I have learned in the last year and a half that I will fluctuate. I know now that I can maintain a weight...I just have to get to a healthy weight to maintain. I am extremely proud that I have kept off the 50ish pounds I lost over a year ago.
I am pretty excited about Ryan's party Friday night. I am going to dress up a little bit, which is something I don't usually do. Brandi and I both got the same little purple witches hat, but she is wanting to go with green face makeup, and I am going to do a little purple sparkling. It's going to be so much fun! I have lots of food to prepare, and even more cleaning to do. But it will all be worth it!
We went to therapy last week, and talked through some things. Our therapist just got her first real office, and I want to bring a little plant as an "office warming" gift next session, but I was a little worried that that might be a tad inappropriate. I asked my mom, and she said it's not; that it would be a nice gesture. Our therapist did her whole office black and red, so I have to find a plant that will match that. Any suggestions? My mom has a pot she painted that she thinks would be perfect...I just need to buy the plant.
Um...let's see...what else has been going on???? My mom's kitchen is coming along. It is taking a lot longer to finish than we thought it would, but Junior is doing all of the work himself (with Ryan's help). He's doing a great job...it just takes a while. It would take less time if the stuff my mom's buys wasn't defective...Junior went to install the sink, and it was warped. He got a new sink, went to install the faucet, and one of the clamps was broken so it leaked. Mom got a new faucet, but the hoses he bought for the other sink didn't fit this one, so he needed new ones...if he didn't have to continually run to the store he might make some progress! lol!
I guess that's about it. I have a lot to do before Friday, including some reviews on my other blogs, so it might be next week before I get back over here. Or even visit the few of you who read this blog. So, have a great week, and I'll see you all soon!!
Oh, wait, I almost forgot...I am rocking the water thing! It's all I drink when I am home. I bought a variety of flavor packets to put in it, so I am not bored with it. Yet.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
My Journey, Huh?
Well, lately my journey sucks. I am having too much fun spending time with my family to worry about things like eating right and exercising. But. most of my time has been spent swimming, which is supposed to be great exercise. And since we are in the pool so much, I am not snacking. Which is awesome. Except at night. I have no willpower at night. Seriously. I can go all day without eating, but once the sun goes down, I can eat everything in sight. I don't. But I could.
I haven't lost any weight, and am still up a couple of pounds. I am okay with that, though, because I am staying pretty steady, which for me is a big deal. I mean, it's been a year since I lost a big hunk of weight, and I have kept it off. For a freakin' year! I have never done that before. Sure, I want to lose more. But right now I am going to be happy with maintaining.
The kids go back to school two weeks from today. I can not believe the Summer has gone by so quickly. I am looking forward to getting back into our daily routine, though. I love this quiet time at night, when I am the only one awake. It's so peaceful. I tried doing bedtimes tonight, to get them back into the swing of things. Brandi finally fell asleep around 11, even though I had her in bed at 9. We watched Huge together, so she really went down at 10, but I am hoping to have her back to regular bedtime by next week. Last year, she went to bed at 7:30, but was allowed to watch 30 minutes of TV before going to sleep. She usually fell asleep before 8. This year, she wants to stay up until 9. I am not sure how she will do with that, since we get up at 5:30am. That's only 8 1/2 hours sleep, and I prefer she get closer to 10. But, I guess we'll try it out and see. Ryan is almost 15, and wants to stay up later, too. last year he went to bed at 10, and I still think that is late enough.
Seriously, why am I rambling on about my kids bedtimes? Like ya'll really care about all that. And this blog is supposed to be about me, not my kids. I have other blogs for that.
We have therapy tomorrow. We haven't been for a month...I was sick last session and Junior refused to go without me, even though this is his therapy, and I am only there for support. It's funny...last time we saw our therapist, we were talking about going more frequently. Oh well.
I guess that's about it. If you made it this far, well, thanks for reading. I know I ramble sometimes. That's just how my mind works.
I haven't lost any weight, and am still up a couple of pounds. I am okay with that, though, because I am staying pretty steady, which for me is a big deal. I mean, it's been a year since I lost a big hunk of weight, and I have kept it off. For a freakin' year! I have never done that before. Sure, I want to lose more. But right now I am going to be happy with maintaining.
The kids go back to school two weeks from today. I can not believe the Summer has gone by so quickly. I am looking forward to getting back into our daily routine, though. I love this quiet time at night, when I am the only one awake. It's so peaceful. I tried doing bedtimes tonight, to get them back into the swing of things. Brandi finally fell asleep around 11, even though I had her in bed at 9. We watched Huge together, so she really went down at 10, but I am hoping to have her back to regular bedtime by next week. Last year, she went to bed at 7:30, but was allowed to watch 30 minutes of TV before going to sleep. She usually fell asleep before 8. This year, she wants to stay up until 9. I am not sure how she will do with that, since we get up at 5:30am. That's only 8 1/2 hours sleep, and I prefer she get closer to 10. But, I guess we'll try it out and see. Ryan is almost 15, and wants to stay up later, too. last year he went to bed at 10, and I still think that is late enough.
Seriously, why am I rambling on about my kids bedtimes? Like ya'll really care about all that. And this blog is supposed to be about me, not my kids. I have other blogs for that.
We have therapy tomorrow. We haven't been for a month...I was sick last session and Junior refused to go without me, even though this is his therapy, and I am only there for support. It's funny...last time we saw our therapist, we were talking about going more frequently. Oh well.
I guess that's about it. If you made it this far, well, thanks for reading. I know I ramble sometimes. That's just how my mind works.
Monday, July 26, 2010
I Hate The Scale Right Now
Okay, so last week I was sick for like four days. Then Mother nature thought it would be fun to add to my misery, and then, to top it all of, I got a little irregular. Now, my tooth is killing me.
Not a fun week at all.
I did get on the scale after being sick for a few days, and I was down 52 pounds. I finally got over that hump!
I got on the scale this morning, and wanted to put my fist through the wall. I seriously don't get it. I haven't been eating much at all due to the puking and toothache, yet I gained weight. Sure, it might be because it's that time of the month, but it's still so frustrating.
Not a fun week at all.
I did get on the scale after being sick for a few days, and I was down 52 pounds. I finally got over that hump!
I got on the scale this morning, and wanted to put my fist through the wall. I seriously don't get it. I haven't been eating much at all due to the puking and toothache, yet I gained weight. Sure, it might be because it's that time of the month, but it's still so frustrating.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Family Therapy
Yesterday the kids joined Junior and I for a therapy session. We played a game called "The Ungame", and it was pretty fun. Basically, landing on different spaces has us doing different things, like answering questions from cards or making up our own questions to ask each other. The kids were nice, mostly, when they answered about me, and sarcastic when answering questions about Junior. I think I came off as the one who tries to keep the kids in line, while Junior just egged them on. I am very interested to see what our therapists are going to say about us when we have a regular session in two weeks.
My last post was about what my Grandmother said to me, and I have been thinking about that quite a bit. Not what she said so much, but how I reacted to it. (oh, and I know I put giggle instead of jiggle...I just realized that re-reading the post...I need to fix that!) In the past, a comment like that would have crushed me. I would have probably cried about it, and then spent the rest of the day (or week) miserable, because I probably wouldn't have put on a bathing suit in front of her.
This new me, though? I let it slide right off my back. I got up from the table, put on my suit, and jumped into the pool. I know, now, how much I have changed in the past year. I don't think I really realized it before then. I have a little bit of confidence now, and it feels great!
My last post was about what my Grandmother said to me, and I have been thinking about that quite a bit. Not what she said so much, but how I reacted to it. (oh, and I know I put giggle instead of jiggle...I just realized that re-reading the post...I need to fix that!) In the past, a comment like that would have crushed me. I would have probably cried about it, and then spent the rest of the day (or week) miserable, because I probably wouldn't have put on a bathing suit in front of her.
This new me, though? I let it slide right off my back. I got up from the table, put on my suit, and jumped into the pool. I know, now, how much I have changed in the past year. I don't think I really realized it before then. I have a little bit of confidence now, and it feels great!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
This Is Going To Be Quick...
My Grandmother came in this morning, and will be staying until next weekend. Now, I haven't seen her since before my surgery, and she says to me this afternoon:
"Jenn, I had no idea you were so big (as she giggles her arms, implying that my fat arms giggle). I used to tell people you were thin with big boobs, but I can see I was wrong."
Thanks Grandmother. Thanks alot.
"Jenn, I had no idea you were so big (as she giggles her arms, implying that my fat arms giggle). I used to tell people you were thin with big boobs, but I can see I was wrong."
Thanks Grandmother. Thanks alot.
Like I Need Something Else To Worry About
***Okay, so I just finished writing this post, and it ended up being long, and kind of whiny at times. Consider yourself warned.
So, did you all read about Junior's hand? If not, you can read about it here. I am still trying to wrap my head around it all.
I am optimistic, though. I keep praying that the infection will respond to these new antibiotics. I remember when I first started going to the doctor about my boob, they said the same thing to me. They gave me a whopping dose of antibiotics, and then wanted to see me 12 hours later to see if there was any improvement.
There was.
I am hoping the same thing happens with Junior. Actually, I am praying the same thing happens. We, as a family, depend on him. We have no savings (living paycheck to paycheck sucks!) and if he is out of work, I have no idea what we will do. Thankfully, he has three weeks of vacation he can take, but that will wipe out any chance of us vacationing at all this year.
He is not taking this whole thing well. I can not help with changing the dressing. I almost passed out just looking at it before. He had to shove the new gauze in the hole himself. It hurt. I have never seen him in so much pain. And he has to do this twice a day. Thank God they finally gave him some good pain medicine that is working to dull the pain. He is half stoned right now, but that's okay. I like seeing him like this more than I like seeing him in pain.
I am trying to stay up until 2am, when he needs to take his next dose of antibiotics. This new one is 300mg four times a day, on top of the other one he started on Wednesday. Too bad this new one wasn't a $4 walmart medicine like the other one was. The gauze we had to get was almost a dollar a sheet. The doctor prescribed 20 sheets, which would have been almost $18. Thankfully the pharmacist recommended getting half to start with, and if we need more we can get the rest. I don't think we will need anymore, because Junior only put about a one inch square piece in the hole, and we have 9 sheets of 1X8 that we are cutting up. We should have only bought four sheets, or even three to start with, but oh well. This shit might be good for other cuts, too, if someone in the family gets hurt.
You know what? I think I am rambling. I am sure no one really cares about what size gauze we bought, but I feel better just rambling on. It helps me deal. I was so stressed before, I went into Ryan's room and played my favorite video game for a couple of hours. That helped me relax. I am such a video game junkie, especially when I find a game I like.
Tomorrow my grandmother is coming up from Florida. I am looking forward to seeing her. It's been a while, and the kids are excited, too. But, with Brandi running a temperature, we'll have to see if we'll be going over there (to mom's) tomorrow. I think, and don't yell at me, that she got too much sun yesterday (we were in the pool all day). She didn't burn (she had on tons of sunscreen) but I think she might have just overheated herself. So, from now on, I will limit her, and my, time in the pool. It's just so nice being in the water.
My sunburn is looking great! I peeled, then peeled again, and now I am getting tan. Trust me, though. I am wearing a lot of sunscreen, too.
My weight? Frustrating. I was sure that once I started swimming, the weight would come off. But it's not. My sister recently posted some pictures from our Tennessee trip, and I was in a few of them. I hate having my picture taken. I HATE it. I hate my mouth and my smile. (I am not fishing for compliments about how beautiful I am...I know I'm beautiful...but that doesn't mean that I can't hate something about myself) Anyway...I look fat in the pictures. Not as fat as I was last year, but still fat. I have so much more weight to lose, and I want to be on the right track, but it is so hard! I love to eat as much as I hate having my picture taken. I have been trying to eat better, and I have been. But I still slip, especially when chocolate and peanut butter are involved.
God, this is turning into a whiny post now, isn't it? I think I might need to go to bed. I can always set the alarm to get up and give Junior his medicine.
If you made it to the end of this post, well, that must mean you love me. :)
So, did you all read about Junior's hand? If not, you can read about it here. I am still trying to wrap my head around it all.
I am optimistic, though. I keep praying that the infection will respond to these new antibiotics. I remember when I first started going to the doctor about my boob, they said the same thing to me. They gave me a whopping dose of antibiotics, and then wanted to see me 12 hours later to see if there was any improvement.
There was.
I am hoping the same thing happens with Junior. Actually, I am praying the same thing happens. We, as a family, depend on him. We have no savings (living paycheck to paycheck sucks!) and if he is out of work, I have no idea what we will do. Thankfully, he has three weeks of vacation he can take, but that will wipe out any chance of us vacationing at all this year.
He is not taking this whole thing well. I can not help with changing the dressing. I almost passed out just looking at it before. He had to shove the new gauze in the hole himself. It hurt. I have never seen him in so much pain. And he has to do this twice a day. Thank God they finally gave him some good pain medicine that is working to dull the pain. He is half stoned right now, but that's okay. I like seeing him like this more than I like seeing him in pain.
I am trying to stay up until 2am, when he needs to take his next dose of antibiotics. This new one is 300mg four times a day, on top of the other one he started on Wednesday. Too bad this new one wasn't a $4 walmart medicine like the other one was. The gauze we had to get was almost a dollar a sheet. The doctor prescribed 20 sheets, which would have been almost $18. Thankfully the pharmacist recommended getting half to start with, and if we need more we can get the rest. I don't think we will need anymore, because Junior only put about a one inch square piece in the hole, and we have 9 sheets of 1X8 that we are cutting up. We should have only bought four sheets, or even three to start with, but oh well. This shit might be good for other cuts, too, if someone in the family gets hurt.
You know what? I think I am rambling. I am sure no one really cares about what size gauze we bought, but I feel better just rambling on. It helps me deal. I was so stressed before, I went into Ryan's room and played my favorite video game for a couple of hours. That helped me relax. I am such a video game junkie, especially when I find a game I like.
Tomorrow my grandmother is coming up from Florida. I am looking forward to seeing her. It's been a while, and the kids are excited, too. But, with Brandi running a temperature, we'll have to see if we'll be going over there (to mom's) tomorrow. I think, and don't yell at me, that she got too much sun yesterday (we were in the pool all day). She didn't burn (she had on tons of sunscreen) but I think she might have just overheated herself. So, from now on, I will limit her, and my, time in the pool. It's just so nice being in the water.
My sunburn is looking great! I peeled, then peeled again, and now I am getting tan. Trust me, though. I am wearing a lot of sunscreen, too.
My weight? Frustrating. I was sure that once I started swimming, the weight would come off. But it's not. My sister recently posted some pictures from our Tennessee trip, and I was in a few of them. I hate having my picture taken. I HATE it. I hate my mouth and my smile. (I am not fishing for compliments about how beautiful I am...I know I'm beautiful...but that doesn't mean that I can't hate something about myself) Anyway...I look fat in the pictures. Not as fat as I was last year, but still fat. I have so much more weight to lose, and I want to be on the right track, but it is so hard! I love to eat as much as I hate having my picture taken. I have been trying to eat better, and I have been. But I still slip, especially when chocolate and peanut butter are involved.
God, this is turning into a whiny post now, isn't it? I think I might need to go to bed. I can always set the alarm to get up and give Junior his medicine.
If you made it to the end of this post, well, that must mean you love me. :)
Friday, June 11, 2010
I Don't Usually Post Pictures On Here, But...
I don't want this blog to be about my kids...this is my space. I just wanted to show you that I am enjoying myself this summer. Tomorrow we are having a cookout at mom's again, with my sisters mother-in-law. Today, my mom made it a point to tell me she would be there, Um, okay. I asked if she wanted me to not wear my bathing suit in front of her, and she said that's not what she meant. She just wanted to make sure that I knew that she was going to be there. I don't think she understands that I have had a sort of epiphany lately...I am fat. I know this. I am trying to lose weight, but it's hard. In the meantime, I refuse to let another summer go by without enjoying myself. People can tell I am fat whether I have on my bathing suit of shorts and a tshirt. I decided that this year, I am going to wear a bathing suit, and I don't care what anyone else thinks. I have spent the past 38 years of my life watching from the sidelines, worried about what people think of me. For some reason, this year, I say fuck it. Let people laugh at me. Let people judge me. I don't care.
And I have really, never been happier.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Hey Ya'll!
That sounded pretty southern, didn't it? LOL!
Anyway, I have been so busy it's not even funny. My trip to Tennessee was awesome, but since I've been back, the scale has not been my friend. not only did I not make it to 50, I gained a couple of pounds back.
Ug.
This is such a hard thing to do, but I am not giving up. I was surprised that i gained weight over my weekend away, because we did a LOT of walking, and not really much eating. But, what i did eat was very carb heavy, and I think that was my problem. By the time we were headed home, I was craving something, anything, that wasn't a carb, which is weird for me, because i could live on bread alone.
The following weekend, which was last weekend, we had two parties for Kasi, and at both I ate way too much crap. Then today we had a cookout at mom's, and I ate way too much. Again.
The good thing now is that the kids are out of school, and I am getting us all back on track. I plan on swimming a lot, which I love, and it is also great exercise. I have to make our food budget stretch, because the kids are no longer eating two meals a day at school. This means no extra junk in the house.
This is a good thing.
On a totally unrelated note, I have once again managed to get into some poison oak, and it's driving me crazy! It's on the inside of both ankles, and a little bit up each calf. You would think by now I would be more careful, but I still don't know exactly what it looks like. But like every year (for the past four or five anyway) I will suffer through it.
Hopefully this time it won't spread.
Anyway, I have been so busy it's not even funny. My trip to Tennessee was awesome, but since I've been back, the scale has not been my friend. not only did I not make it to 50, I gained a couple of pounds back.
Ug.
This is such a hard thing to do, but I am not giving up. I was surprised that i gained weight over my weekend away, because we did a LOT of walking, and not really much eating. But, what i did eat was very carb heavy, and I think that was my problem. By the time we were headed home, I was craving something, anything, that wasn't a carb, which is weird for me, because i could live on bread alone.
The following weekend, which was last weekend, we had two parties for Kasi, and at both I ate way too much crap. Then today we had a cookout at mom's, and I ate way too much. Again.
The good thing now is that the kids are out of school, and I am getting us all back on track. I plan on swimming a lot, which I love, and it is also great exercise. I have to make our food budget stretch, because the kids are no longer eating two meals a day at school. This means no extra junk in the house.
This is a good thing.
On a totally unrelated note, I have once again managed to get into some poison oak, and it's driving me crazy! It's on the inside of both ankles, and a little bit up each calf. You would think by now I would be more careful, but I still don't know exactly what it looks like. But like every year (for the past four or five anyway) I will suffer through it.
Hopefully this time it won't spread.
Monday, March 15, 2010
My Happy Place
Wow. It's been a while, and a lot has happened. If you read this blog because you know me from my other ones, this will be old news. But I'm going to share anyway :)
We moved. We didn't quite make it to March. We left the apartment in the middle of February, and I am so happy. The new place is great! It's a cute little double wide trailer, set up in a pretty upscale park. I hate the term "trailer park", because I always think rednecks and run down yards, old cars and lots of public intoxication. Where we are living, the are rules about stuff like that. In fact, there are rules about everything, and I love it. We don't have a very big yard, but the kids have lots of roads to ride their bikes on, and there are tons of kids in here, too. In fact, Brandi has already made a little friend, and they have been spending a lot of time together. This little girl wanders the park on her own, but I make Ryan or Kasi go with Brandi where ever she goes. I have also been walking a little bit, and boy is it hilly. My legs let me know real quick that I am not in the best of shape. Which means I need to be doing it a lot more.
It's a three bedroom house...yay...so I actually have my own bedroom. Of course, Brandi still sleeps with me, and probably will until she goes off to college. Because of his bi-pap machine, Junior sleeps by himself. Ryan and Kasi are happy with their rooms, which are bigger than what they had at the apartment. We have two full bathrooms, which is awesome. My bathroom has a huge garden tub with separate shower. The funny thing is, I have been looking forward to taking a bath for the past 18 months, but I have only been in the tub a couple of times. The kids are enjoying it, though.
Let's see...I am down 45 pounds. I know! Go me! I just hope that I can continue to lose. I went food shopping the other day for the month, and I bought a lot of healthy stuff. I have also started enforcing portion control, which the kids hate. Instead of second servings at supper time, I make them wait a while, and then have a healthy snack. I am hoping this will become the norm, instead of torture for them. And for me.
I guess that's enough for now. I will try to post here more often, but I say that all the time, and never follow through. So, how about I promise to not let a month and a half go by between now and then. Deal?
We moved. We didn't quite make it to March. We left the apartment in the middle of February, and I am so happy. The new place is great! It's a cute little double wide trailer, set up in a pretty upscale park. I hate the term "trailer park", because I always think rednecks and run down yards, old cars and lots of public intoxication. Where we are living, the are rules about stuff like that. In fact, there are rules about everything, and I love it. We don't have a very big yard, but the kids have lots of roads to ride their bikes on, and there are tons of kids in here, too. In fact, Brandi has already made a little friend, and they have been spending a lot of time together. This little girl wanders the park on her own, but I make Ryan or Kasi go with Brandi where ever she goes. I have also been walking a little bit, and boy is it hilly. My legs let me know real quick that I am not in the best of shape. Which means I need to be doing it a lot more.
It's a three bedroom house...yay...so I actually have my own bedroom. Of course, Brandi still sleeps with me, and probably will until she goes off to college. Because of his bi-pap machine, Junior sleeps by himself. Ryan and Kasi are happy with their rooms, which are bigger than what they had at the apartment. We have two full bathrooms, which is awesome. My bathroom has a huge garden tub with separate shower. The funny thing is, I have been looking forward to taking a bath for the past 18 months, but I have only been in the tub a couple of times. The kids are enjoying it, though.
Let's see...I am down 45 pounds. I know! Go me! I just hope that I can continue to lose. I went food shopping the other day for the month, and I bought a lot of healthy stuff. I have also started enforcing portion control, which the kids hate. Instead of second servings at supper time, I make them wait a while, and then have a healthy snack. I am hoping this will become the norm, instead of torture for them. And for me.
I guess that's enough for now. I will try to post here more often, but I say that all the time, and never follow through. So, how about I promise to not let a month and a half go by between now and then. Deal?
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Goodbye, And Then Hello
Yesterday we said goodbye to Cindy, our therapist. Her six months with us were up, so she turned us over to Elizabeth. She has been sitting in on our last three sessions, and she seems nice enough. Very young, but that's okay. Kelsey was young, and we loved her.
It's been nice that we haven't had much to talk about...things have been pretty quiet around here. It's weeks like this that the therapists try and get Junior to talk about his past, and most of the time he will shut down. Yesterday, he talked a little about it, and I think this is the direction we will be going with Elizabeth.
It will be interesting to see how it goes...
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We went today and sorta did our taxes. They are all filled out, but can not be filed until I get my tax paper from Izea. I am hoping it won't be too much longer. I was pleasantly surprised with the amount we are getting back. This is the first year in a while that I have had an income, and I didn't pay any taxes on it through the year, so I knew I would have to pay now. It didn't really make a difference, though, because we still qualified for earned income credit and some other kid tax.
I am just happy that it is enough for us to pay those we owe money too, move, and get Ryan and I laptops. And, if I save the receipt for the laptop, I can claim it as a deduction next year. In fact, the lady who prepared our taxes deducted my yearly cost of internet because I use it to work.
Pretty cool, right?
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I am still holding steady at 42 pounds down. I have been eating poorly lately, so I am not surprised that I am not losing. I have already warned the entire family that once we get settled into the new place, we are all going on a diet.
Every. Single. One. Of. Us.
Wish me luck! lol!
It's been nice that we haven't had much to talk about...things have been pretty quiet around here. It's weeks like this that the therapists try and get Junior to talk about his past, and most of the time he will shut down. Yesterday, he talked a little about it, and I think this is the direction we will be going with Elizabeth.
It will be interesting to see how it goes...
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We went today and sorta did our taxes. They are all filled out, but can not be filed until I get my tax paper from Izea. I am hoping it won't be too much longer. I was pleasantly surprised with the amount we are getting back. This is the first year in a while that I have had an income, and I didn't pay any taxes on it through the year, so I knew I would have to pay now. It didn't really make a difference, though, because we still qualified for earned income credit and some other kid tax.
I am just happy that it is enough for us to pay those we owe money too, move, and get Ryan and I laptops. And, if I save the receipt for the laptop, I can claim it as a deduction next year. In fact, the lady who prepared our taxes deducted my yearly cost of internet because I use it to work.
Pretty cool, right?
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I am still holding steady at 42 pounds down. I have been eating poorly lately, so I am not surprised that I am not losing. I have already warned the entire family that once we get settled into the new place, we are all going on a diet.
Every. Single. One. Of. Us.
Wish me luck! lol!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Holy Crap, 41!!!
Okay. I love the wii. I give it credit for my weight loss this past week. I was worried that with all the treats and goodies that I would gain back some of the weight I lost.
Nope. I lost another couple of pounds, bringing my total to 41 pounds down! I am so excited! I am even more excited to start eating a little better, too, and seeing if that helps the weight come off a little faster.
So, yay for me!!!!!!
Nope. I lost another couple of pounds, bringing my total to 41 pounds down! I am so excited! I am even more excited to start eating a little better, too, and seeing if that helps the weight come off a little faster.
So, yay for me!!!!!!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Hello, Hello, Hello
What a great week last week was! I was so busy, and it was so worth it. I got to hang out with family and great friends, and for the most part, I enjoyed every second of it.
I say for the most part, because of course there were moments when I wished the kids were in school and I could find a moment for myself. In an apartment this small, no one has any privacy. Sometimes it can be extremely frustrating. Some days, the only quiet I find is taking a shower.
I can not wait until we move.
We got all the Christmas decorations put up and the tree is assembled. It has lights on it, but no ornaments. The girls are going to do that when they get home from school. Ryan has no interest, which I kind of expected. Junior was going to "make" him participate, but I talked him out of it. He's a 14 year old boy, and this behavior is to be expected, right? I know in a few years he will start wanting to do things as a family again, and I can wait. I don't want to pressure him to do something just to say he did it, you know what I mean?
I found out over the weekend that I am going to be an aunt to another niece, which is awesome. I found out by reading an update on facebook, which kind of hurt my feelings, but whatever. Some things are not worth getting upset about, and as long as the baby is healthy, (which she is) that is all that matters. Now I get to make three little girls name signs, which I am excited to do! I love making girl things.
I finally figured out what all my nieces and nephews are getting for Christmas this year, and it cost me a total of about $8 for all 12. Amazing, right? Thanksgiving night I was sitting, figuring up what bills I could pay with Juniors check Friday, and it dawned on me that he will only get one more paycheck before Christmas. Talk about your heart stopping! I am no where near finished shopping for my kids, and the thought of spending money on anyone else is out of the question. Luckily, inspiration struck when I found something on sale Black friday at Michael's. It's not much, but I believe in the "it's the thought that counts" philosophy, and I did put a lot of time into the gifts, so that's gotta count for something, right? I will post pictures of the ones I made for my kids on my craft blog soon.
I am also planning Brandi's birthday party, and thankfully I planned it so that it is after food stamps kick in for this month. She wants to invite kids from school, but with her being my 3rd kid, I know that kids this age don't come. It wasn't until about 5th grade that Ryan and Kasi has friends come to their parties, and I don't want her to be disappointed. Besides, my house is way to small.
She wants a "wizards of waverly place" party...this kid can't be easy! lol! My mom is in charge of the cake, and since she has no idea what "wizards" are, it should be interesting to see what she comes up with.
Let's see....what else has been going on???
Oh, I lost another 3 pounds. I know, it's crazy. I was totally expecting to see a gain on Saturday morning when I finally got up the nerve to get on the scale, and it showed a loss. I was shocked. I didn't exactly eat well last week, but thinking back, the days we ate badly, I ate badly one meal, and that was pretty much the only time I ate that whole day. Maybe that had something to do with it. I am pretty much convinced that there is something going on with me...maybe blood sugar issues...causing me to lose weight, but I have yet to muster up the courage to google "unexplained weight loss". I really don't want to freak myself out.
I guess that's about it. This week should be quiet, and hopefully I will get the house cleaned and some opps done. Fingers crossed! lol!
I say for the most part, because of course there were moments when I wished the kids were in school and I could find a moment for myself. In an apartment this small, no one has any privacy. Sometimes it can be extremely frustrating. Some days, the only quiet I find is taking a shower.
I can not wait until we move.
We got all the Christmas decorations put up and the tree is assembled. It has lights on it, but no ornaments. The girls are going to do that when they get home from school. Ryan has no interest, which I kind of expected. Junior was going to "make" him participate, but I talked him out of it. He's a 14 year old boy, and this behavior is to be expected, right? I know in a few years he will start wanting to do things as a family again, and I can wait. I don't want to pressure him to do something just to say he did it, you know what I mean?
I found out over the weekend that I am going to be an aunt to another niece, which is awesome. I found out by reading an update on facebook, which kind of hurt my feelings, but whatever. Some things are not worth getting upset about, and as long as the baby is healthy, (which she is) that is all that matters. Now I get to make three little girls name signs, which I am excited to do! I love making girl things.
I finally figured out what all my nieces and nephews are getting for Christmas this year, and it cost me a total of about $8 for all 12. Amazing, right? Thanksgiving night I was sitting, figuring up what bills I could pay with Juniors check Friday, and it dawned on me that he will only get one more paycheck before Christmas. Talk about your heart stopping! I am no where near finished shopping for my kids, and the thought of spending money on anyone else is out of the question. Luckily, inspiration struck when I found something on sale Black friday at Michael's. It's not much, but I believe in the "it's the thought that counts" philosophy, and I did put a lot of time into the gifts, so that's gotta count for something, right? I will post pictures of the ones I made for my kids on my craft blog soon.
I am also planning Brandi's birthday party, and thankfully I planned it so that it is after food stamps kick in for this month. She wants to invite kids from school, but with her being my 3rd kid, I know that kids this age don't come. It wasn't until about 5th grade that Ryan and Kasi has friends come to their parties, and I don't want her to be disappointed. Besides, my house is way to small.
She wants a "wizards of waverly place" party...this kid can't be easy! lol! My mom is in charge of the cake, and since she has no idea what "wizards" are, it should be interesting to see what she comes up with.
Let's see....what else has been going on???
Oh, I lost another 3 pounds. I know, it's crazy. I was totally expecting to see a gain on Saturday morning when I finally got up the nerve to get on the scale, and it showed a loss. I was shocked. I didn't exactly eat well last week, but thinking back, the days we ate badly, I ate badly one meal, and that was pretty much the only time I ate that whole day. Maybe that had something to do with it. I am pretty much convinced that there is something going on with me...maybe blood sugar issues...causing me to lose weight, but I have yet to muster up the courage to google "unexplained weight loss". I really don't want to freak myself out.
I guess that's about it. This week should be quiet, and hopefully I will get the house cleaned and some opps done. Fingers crossed! lol!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Therapy And Weight Loss
I'll tell ya'll about therapy in a sec. First I want to discuss my miraculous weight loss.
I say miraculous because I have no idea how I am still losing weight. Okay, maybe I was clued in a little bit today, and few weeks ago, but still.
Let me explain.
Ever since Junior switched to the 4am work schedule, I have been staying up until 2am every night to get him up and off to work. Then I go to bed, get up at 5:15 to get the kids up and ready for the bus, take them to the bus stop, come back home and try to sleep until about 11:30 on most days. That is what time I set the alarm for, but more times than not, I am up before 10.
A few weeks ago, when we were dealing with all the rental issues, Junior was home for a few days. On those days, he would continuously ask me if I wanted something to eat, and I would say no.
All day.
He asked me if I ever eat, and I told him yeah, I just wasn't hungry that day. Or the few days he was home. Turns out, I was just too busy to eat. When I get up for the day, I get on the computer and do what paid posting I can. This may seem easy to some people, but for me it is difficult sometimes. Not only do i have to do the paid posts, but I have to do interesting posts in between. I will admit that some days, my filler posts suck, but my life is not exciting enough to warrant six posts a day. That is when I talk about television and movies.
Anyway, today Ryan was home from school, and he asked if he could fix me lunch. I told him i wasn't hungry, and that was when it hit me.
On any typical day, I only eat supper.
Then a snack or two while I try to stay up until 2am.
But that's it.
No wonder I am losing weight.
This past month it was only about 3 pounds, I think, bringing my total to 35 pounds lost. Not too bad for not trying. I have clothes that I am wearing that haven't fit in years, so I can definitely tell I'm losing. People have also been commenting on it, which is nice.
Now if I could just lose about 50 more....
Junior and I went to therapy yesterday. We switched days because I was going to apply for that candle job, but that didn't work out. We met with Cindy, and the first thing she did was tell us what happened with Bob.
Poor Bob.
He didn't feel like he did anything unprofessional, and felt ambushed when Cindy spoke to him about things in front of their supervisor. She said he was mad at her for a while, but he got over it, and things are good between them. She then asked if we would mind if she brought in another student...a young girl just starting out...next session. We said we didn't mind, so it should be interesting.
As far as the session went, we just hashed over things we have discussed in the past. There was one point where Junior pissed me off so bad I almost started crying. I don't remember specifically what we were talking about, but it had something to do with how he used to not care about drinking and fighting and crap, but since having kids he knows he can't do that anymore. Cindy asked what he meant, and he said something about the kids needing him, so he knew he couldn't screw up his life anymore. She asked if the kids weren't in the picture, and it was just him and I, would he have changed...and he said no.
WTF?
He basically said that I wasn't worth staying out of trouble for.
Of course, as soon as he saw me react to that, he said he didn't mean it the way it came out, and that he just meant that he knew I was strong enough to take care of myself, but the kids aren't.
Whatever.
I know deep down he didn't mean it like that, because even before I found out I was pregnant with Ryan, he gave up his old ways, because I told him he had to choose...me or his drinking.
But it still hurt that he said it.
We are getting to the point in therapy where we are looking closer at our relationship, and how we are coping with being free of his family. Honestly, we are doing great. Better than ever. We may not agree on a lot of things, but when it comes to his family, I stand behind his decisions.
It was his choice to walk away.
It was his choice to sever ties.
It was his choice to let go.
It is my choice to support him, whether I agree with him or not.
It's his family...his decisions...and I will stand beside him.
Always.
I say miraculous because I have no idea how I am still losing weight. Okay, maybe I was clued in a little bit today, and few weeks ago, but still.
Let me explain.
Ever since Junior switched to the 4am work schedule, I have been staying up until 2am every night to get him up and off to work. Then I go to bed, get up at 5:15 to get the kids up and ready for the bus, take them to the bus stop, come back home and try to sleep until about 11:30 on most days. That is what time I set the alarm for, but more times than not, I am up before 10.
A few weeks ago, when we were dealing with all the rental issues, Junior was home for a few days. On those days, he would continuously ask me if I wanted something to eat, and I would say no.
All day.
He asked me if I ever eat, and I told him yeah, I just wasn't hungry that day. Or the few days he was home. Turns out, I was just too busy to eat. When I get up for the day, I get on the computer and do what paid posting I can. This may seem easy to some people, but for me it is difficult sometimes. Not only do i have to do the paid posts, but I have to do interesting posts in between. I will admit that some days, my filler posts suck, but my life is not exciting enough to warrant six posts a day. That is when I talk about television and movies.
Anyway, today Ryan was home from school, and he asked if he could fix me lunch. I told him i wasn't hungry, and that was when it hit me.
On any typical day, I only eat supper.
Then a snack or two while I try to stay up until 2am.
But that's it.
No wonder I am losing weight.
This past month it was only about 3 pounds, I think, bringing my total to 35 pounds lost. Not too bad for not trying. I have clothes that I am wearing that haven't fit in years, so I can definitely tell I'm losing. People have also been commenting on it, which is nice.
Now if I could just lose about 50 more....
Junior and I went to therapy yesterday. We switched days because I was going to apply for that candle job, but that didn't work out. We met with Cindy, and the first thing she did was tell us what happened with Bob.
Poor Bob.
He didn't feel like he did anything unprofessional, and felt ambushed when Cindy spoke to him about things in front of their supervisor. She said he was mad at her for a while, but he got over it, and things are good between them. She then asked if we would mind if she brought in another student...a young girl just starting out...next session. We said we didn't mind, so it should be interesting.
As far as the session went, we just hashed over things we have discussed in the past. There was one point where Junior pissed me off so bad I almost started crying. I don't remember specifically what we were talking about, but it had something to do with how he used to not care about drinking and fighting and crap, but since having kids he knows he can't do that anymore. Cindy asked what he meant, and he said something about the kids needing him, so he knew he couldn't screw up his life anymore. She asked if the kids weren't in the picture, and it was just him and I, would he have changed...and he said no.
WTF?
He basically said that I wasn't worth staying out of trouble for.
Of course, as soon as he saw me react to that, he said he didn't mean it the way it came out, and that he just meant that he knew I was strong enough to take care of myself, but the kids aren't.
Whatever.
I know deep down he didn't mean it like that, because even before I found out I was pregnant with Ryan, he gave up his old ways, because I told him he had to choose...me or his drinking.
But it still hurt that he said it.
We are getting to the point in therapy where we are looking closer at our relationship, and how we are coping with being free of his family. Honestly, we are doing great. Better than ever. We may not agree on a lot of things, but when it comes to his family, I stand behind his decisions.
It was his choice to walk away.
It was his choice to sever ties.
It was his choice to let go.
It is my choice to support him, whether I agree with him or not.
It's his family...his decisions...and I will stand beside him.
Always.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
A Mish Mash Of My Day
Junior took today off to deal with some landlord issues...I am so ready to move!...so we went out and had breakfast at Hardee's. We haven't done this since he started morning shift at work, and it was nice to sit with him, without kids, and have an adult conversation. Not ADULT adult, but just a normal conversation where we talked about Christmas and moving, without little ears around. The one big drawback about our little duplex is that even when the kids are in another room, they can still hear every word we say.
We also went and looked at storage buildings...I wrote about that on my other blog...and when we got home Missy called. We decided to meet up for supper, and I gotta tell you, I had a really good time. This surprised me, because I was on the verge of a panic attack, because the restaurant was sooo busy. But once we were seated, I was okay. I don't know when I got so crazy, either. Those things never used to bother me. Missy's mom came too, and I really enjoy spending time with her, too. If you read Missy's blog, you know how great her sense of humor is. Well, she gets it from her mom, and the two of them together is hysterical. We are all going to go trick or treating together, and I am really looking forward to it!
Junior and I also went to therapy today. It was a good session, where we basically discussed how much improvement Junior has shown in the past year, and deciding what we still have to work on to get him where he needs to be. I think he is well on his way, and his therapist(s) agree. I am so proud of him.
I was proud of myself the other day when we went to Burger King with Brandi, and I was able to sit in a booth. I may have mentioned this before, I don't remember, but I never used to be able to fit in the booths at fast food places. It's nice that I can now.
I guess that's about it. Have a great night!
We also went and looked at storage buildings...I wrote about that on my other blog...and when we got home Missy called. We decided to meet up for supper, and I gotta tell you, I had a really good time. This surprised me, because I was on the verge of a panic attack, because the restaurant was sooo busy. But once we were seated, I was okay. I don't know when I got so crazy, either. Those things never used to bother me. Missy's mom came too, and I really enjoy spending time with her, too. If you read Missy's blog, you know how great her sense of humor is. Well, she gets it from her mom, and the two of them together is hysterical. We are all going to go trick or treating together, and I am really looking forward to it!
Junior and I also went to therapy today. It was a good session, where we basically discussed how much improvement Junior has shown in the past year, and deciding what we still have to work on to get him where he needs to be. I think he is well on his way, and his therapist(s) agree. I am so proud of him.
I was proud of myself the other day when we went to Burger King with Brandi, and I was able to sit in a booth. I may have mentioned this before, I don't remember, but I never used to be able to fit in the booths at fast food places. It's nice that I can now.
I guess that's about it. Have a great night!
Monday, September 14, 2009
Total Random Post About Everything And Nothing, All At The Same Time
My phone has been broken for over a week now, and I really haven't noticed.
That's pretty sad if you think about it.
I can call out fine, but when someone calls me, all they get is static, and my phone never rings. If they are lucky, they can leave a message. It took a few days before I even knew that was happening.
You see, no one, other than family, ever calls me.
Except Missy.
Kinda sad, right?
I guess it's a good thing I really don't like talking on the phone.
I broke down today and called to have the line fixed, because my sister is having a baby on friday, and I want to make sure I get "the call" when baby Jake is here safe and sound.
They are coming tomorrow between 1 and 3. I hate when I am the only one home for repair men, but what can you do? Hopefully it is something they can fix without coming in the house.
In other "news", I am holding steady at 30 pounds lost. I told my mom yesterday I was a little worried that maybe there was something wrong with me, because I have lost this weight pretty much without trying. Sure, we haven't had much food in the house, so I haven't been eating, but I have dieted before and never had these kinds of results.
All the check places have tried to deposit the checks, and we have been paying bounced check fees for a couple of weeks now. I believe the last of the fees were paid with the money I deposited this morning from my paid posts, so hopefully we can keep our account out of the hole. The check places are now calling, trying to work with us. Why they couldn't do this before, I have no idea. Junior is going to go talk to them all on Friday, and hopefully be able to make some sort of reasonable payment arrangements. Fingers crossed.
I am getting so excited about moving, and a little nervous at the same time. I think most of my anxiety is going to be about finding the right place. I know tons of places check your credit these days, and ours isn't so good. I hope we can find a three bedroom that is not a dump. I am tired of living in a place that is falling apart.
Junior is going tomorrow to apply us for food stamps again. We used to get them, and could really use them right now until we get things straightened out. I used an online calculator, and we should get about $175 a month, which will help a lot, although I have gotten really good at buying a weeks worth of groceries for about $40 a week. We plan on doing the parking lot sale again this weekend, and that will help a lot too.
My legs are killing me today from all the walking at the zoo yesterday. I really need to make it a point not to sit so long at this computer every day. Hopefully when we move I can start walking again. The roads around here just aren't safe enough.
I guess that's about it. I really should get up and go clean the bathroom, but I probably won't. It will still be there in the morning.
That's pretty sad if you think about it.
I can call out fine, but when someone calls me, all they get is static, and my phone never rings. If they are lucky, they can leave a message. It took a few days before I even knew that was happening.
You see, no one, other than family, ever calls me.
Except Missy.
Kinda sad, right?
I guess it's a good thing I really don't like talking on the phone.
I broke down today and called to have the line fixed, because my sister is having a baby on friday, and I want to make sure I get "the call" when baby Jake is here safe and sound.
They are coming tomorrow between 1 and 3. I hate when I am the only one home for repair men, but what can you do? Hopefully it is something they can fix without coming in the house.
In other "news", I am holding steady at 30 pounds lost. I told my mom yesterday I was a little worried that maybe there was something wrong with me, because I have lost this weight pretty much without trying. Sure, we haven't had much food in the house, so I haven't been eating, but I have dieted before and never had these kinds of results.
All the check places have tried to deposit the checks, and we have been paying bounced check fees for a couple of weeks now. I believe the last of the fees were paid with the money I deposited this morning from my paid posts, so hopefully we can keep our account out of the hole. The check places are now calling, trying to work with us. Why they couldn't do this before, I have no idea. Junior is going to go talk to them all on Friday, and hopefully be able to make some sort of reasonable payment arrangements. Fingers crossed.
I am getting so excited about moving, and a little nervous at the same time. I think most of my anxiety is going to be about finding the right place. I know tons of places check your credit these days, and ours isn't so good. I hope we can find a three bedroom that is not a dump. I am tired of living in a place that is falling apart.
Junior is going tomorrow to apply us for food stamps again. We used to get them, and could really use them right now until we get things straightened out. I used an online calculator, and we should get about $175 a month, which will help a lot, although I have gotten really good at buying a weeks worth of groceries for about $40 a week. We plan on doing the parking lot sale again this weekend, and that will help a lot too.
My legs are killing me today from all the walking at the zoo yesterday. I really need to make it a point not to sit so long at this computer every day. Hopefully when we move I can start walking again. The roads around here just aren't safe enough.
I guess that's about it. I really should get up and go clean the bathroom, but I probably won't. It will still be there in the morning.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
30!
I am down 30 pounds!!!! Holy crap!!!!!
The sad thing is, I am not even trying. It's the lack of food in the house, and stress.
Who thought having no money would have a bright side?
I put on jeans today that I haven't worn in years!
On another note, Junior and I decided today that we are going to move in February. I am tired of the roof leaking, my bathtub faucet continuously running, and here's the straw that broke the camels back.
Remember when we asked about putting up the pool, and they said sure, but we would have to pay the difference in the water bill? Well, they charged us $40 to fill a 12 foot pool a foot and a half deep. There is no way in hell it took that much water. I told Junior he should have questioned it, and asked to see the bill, but he said it is easier just to pay it.
Whatever. We went today, and found the cutest 3 bedroom trailer. I wish we never resigned the lease. I wish we could move today. But, we are stuck here until February. I will not break our lease. Plus, we will have more money in February to move. It is a priority this time that we find something with three bedrooms, even if it is a trailer. They do have some nice ones nowadays.
The sad thing is, I am not even trying. It's the lack of food in the house, and stress.
Who thought having no money would have a bright side?
I put on jeans today that I haven't worn in years!
On another note, Junior and I decided today that we are going to move in February. I am tired of the roof leaking, my bathtub faucet continuously running, and here's the straw that broke the camels back.
Remember when we asked about putting up the pool, and they said sure, but we would have to pay the difference in the water bill? Well, they charged us $40 to fill a 12 foot pool a foot and a half deep. There is no way in hell it took that much water. I told Junior he should have questioned it, and asked to see the bill, but he said it is easier just to pay it.
Whatever. We went today, and found the cutest 3 bedroom trailer. I wish we never resigned the lease. I wish we could move today. But, we are stuck here until February. I will not break our lease. Plus, we will have more money in February to move. It is a priority this time that we find something with three bedrooms, even if it is a trailer. They do have some nice ones nowadays.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Can This Be Right?
I got on the scale this morning, and was convinced it was broken.
Since Kasi was weighed at the doctors office two weeks ago, I knew what she would weigh, so I had her get on the scale when she got home.
My scale says she is four pounds heavier than the doctors scale.
Okay, so my scale is off, but in the wrong direction.
I thought it was weighing lighter, not heavier.
So, according to my scale, not the doctors, I have lost about 25 pounds, give or take a few ounces.
I guess there is a good side to stress and not having money to have junk food in the house. Since it's not here, I don't eat it, and apparently, that was a big issue for me.
I hope this trend continues....
Since Kasi was weighed at the doctors office two weeks ago, I knew what she would weigh, so I had her get on the scale when she got home.
My scale says she is four pounds heavier than the doctors scale.
Okay, so my scale is off, but in the wrong direction.
I thought it was weighing lighter, not heavier.
So, according to my scale, not the doctors, I have lost about 25 pounds, give or take a few ounces.
I guess there is a good side to stress and not having money to have junk food in the house. Since it's not here, I don't eat it, and apparently, that was a big issue for me.
I hope this trend continues....
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Where Does The Time Go?
Tomorrow is the last morning I get to sleep in. Tuesday it is back to getting up at 5:20 am and helping the kiddos get off to school.
Where did the summer go?
In fact, where did this last year go?
It seems like only yesterday that we moved into this apartment. Heck, it seems like only yesterday that Ryan was born. It doesn't seem right that I am 37 years old, and that next year is my 2o year HS reunion. I have no intentions of going, but it's just crazy thinking that I have been out of school for so long.
When did I get so old????
On a different note, I got on the scale the other day...and was pleasantly surprised. Seems I have lost about 21 pounds in the last couple of months. I blame losing our food stamps...no money to buy food means there is no food in the house to eat. The sucky thing is that I am so heavy, people don't notice the loss. But that's okay. I tend to do better when people don't know I am losing. I am hoping I can keep this up, which shouldn't be too hard with the kids back in school. I may even break out the old Richard Simmons tapes.
We went to the movie in the park the other night, and I was kind of disappointed when we left early. It's times like that when I hate being depended on other people for transportation. Sure, the kids weren't watching the movie...they were playing frisbee. I wasn't watching either...I was too busy gossiping with Missy. I hated that they left because we left...it felt like I ruined the whole night. But, the time we were there was great! Kasi won something this time, a crock pot cook book. I was looking through it before, and there are a few recipes I would like to try. I also came home with the breakfast cookbook Missy won last time...she knew I was drooling over it, and let me have it...she has such a huge heart!...and there are tons of recipes in that one that are calling my name.
Other than that, it has been a quiet, boring weekend, which is what I enjoy.
I hope you had a good one, too.
Where did the summer go?
In fact, where did this last year go?
It seems like only yesterday that we moved into this apartment. Heck, it seems like only yesterday that Ryan was born. It doesn't seem right that I am 37 years old, and that next year is my 2o year HS reunion. I have no intentions of going, but it's just crazy thinking that I have been out of school for so long.
When did I get so old????
On a different note, I got on the scale the other day...and was pleasantly surprised. Seems I have lost about 21 pounds in the last couple of months. I blame losing our food stamps...no money to buy food means there is no food in the house to eat. The sucky thing is that I am so heavy, people don't notice the loss. But that's okay. I tend to do better when people don't know I am losing. I am hoping I can keep this up, which shouldn't be too hard with the kids back in school. I may even break out the old Richard Simmons tapes.
We went to the movie in the park the other night, and I was kind of disappointed when we left early. It's times like that when I hate being depended on other people for transportation. Sure, the kids weren't watching the movie...they were playing frisbee. I wasn't watching either...I was too busy gossiping with Missy. I hated that they left because we left...it felt like I ruined the whole night. But, the time we were there was great! Kasi won something this time, a crock pot cook book. I was looking through it before, and there are a few recipes I would like to try. I also came home with the breakfast cookbook Missy won last time...she knew I was drooling over it, and let me have it...she has such a huge heart!...and there are tons of recipes in that one that are calling my name.
Other than that, it has been a quiet, boring weekend, which is what I enjoy.
I hope you had a good one, too.
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