I Love This Time Of Year

It's almost Holiday time, and I love it.  I wish our weather would reflect Fall...we have been in the 80's for the past week or so.  I want the cool days, and the changing leaves....

For me, the Holiday season always starts with Ryan's birthday party.  We do it a couple of weeks early sot hat we can make it a Halloween party.  Then his actual birthday comes, then three weeks later is Thanksgiving.  A week and a half after that is Brandi's birthday, and then three weeks later we have Christmas and New Years. 

I love the time I spend with my family this time of year.  I love that all our celebrations focus around the food.  For a fat girl, this is not a good thing, but I have given myself permission to enjoy myself.  If I gain a little weight back, it will be okay.  I have learned in the last year and a half that I will fluctuate.  I know now that I can maintain a weight...I just have to get to a healthy weight to maintain.  I am extremely proud that I have kept off the 50ish pounds I lost over a year ago.

I am pretty excited about Ryan's party Friday night.  I am going to dress up a little bit, which is something I don't usually do.  Brandi and I both got the same little purple witches hat, but she is wanting to go with green face makeup, and I am going to do a little purple sparkling.  It's going to be so much fun!  I have lots of food to prepare, and even more cleaning to do.  But it will all be worth it!

We went to therapy last week, and talked through some things.  Our therapist just got her first real office, and I want to bring a little plant as an "office warming" gift next session, but I was a little worried that that might be a tad inappropriate.  I asked my mom, and she said it's not; that it would be a nice gesture.  Our therapist did her whole office black and red, so I have to find a plant that will match that.  Any suggestions?  My mom has a pot she painted that she thinks would be perfect...I just need to buy the plant.

Um...let's see...what else has been going on????  My mom's kitchen is coming along.  It is taking a lot longer to finish than we thought it would, but Junior is doing all of the work himself (with Ryan's help).  He's doing a great job...it just takes a while.  It would take less time if the stuff my mom's buys wasn't defective...Junior went to install the sink, and it was warped.  He got a new sink, went to install the faucet, and one of the clamps was broken so it leaked.  Mom got a new faucet, but the hoses he bought for the other sink didn't fit this one, so he needed new ones...if he didn't have to continually run to the store he might make some progress! lol!

I guess that's about it.  I have a lot to do before Friday, including some reviews on my other blogs, so it might be next week before I get back over here.  Or even visit the few of you who read this blog.  So, have a great week, and I'll see you all soon!!

Oh, wait, I almost forgot...I am rocking the water thing!  It's all I drink when I am home.  I bought a variety of flavor packets to put in it, so I am not bored with it.  Yet.

Like I Need Something Else To Worry About

***Okay, so I just finished writing this post, and it ended up being long, and kind of whiny at times.  Consider yourself warned.

So, did you all read about Junior's hand?  If not, you can read about it here.  I am still trying to wrap my head around it all.

I am optimistic, though.  I keep praying that the infection will respond to these new antibiotics.  I remember when I first started going to the doctor about my boob, they said the same thing to me.  They gave me a whopping dose of antibiotics, and then wanted to see me 12 hours later to see if there was any improvement.

There was.

I am hoping the same thing happens with Junior.  Actually, I am praying the same thing happens.  We, as a family, depend on him.  We have no savings (living paycheck to paycheck sucks!) and if he is out of work, I have no idea what we will do.  Thankfully, he has three weeks of vacation he can take, but that will wipe out any chance of us vacationing at all this year.

He is not taking this whole thing well.  I can not help with changing the dressing.  I almost passed out just looking at it before.  He had to shove the new gauze in the hole himself.  It hurt.  I have never seen him in so much pain.  And he has to do this twice a day.  Thank God they finally gave him some good pain medicine that is working to dull the pain.  He is half stoned right now, but that's okay.  I like seeing him like this more than I like seeing him in pain.

I am trying to stay up until 2am, when he needs to take his next dose of antibiotics.  This new one is 300mg four times a day, on top of the other one he started on Wednesday.  Too bad this new one wasn't a $4 walmart medicine like the other one was.  The gauze we had to get was almost a dollar a sheet.  The doctor prescribed 20 sheets, which would have been almost $18.  Thankfully the pharmacist recommended getting half to start with, and if we need more we can get the rest.  I don't think we will need anymore, because Junior only put about a one inch square piece in the hole, and we have 9 sheets of 1X8 that we are cutting up.  We should have only bought four sheets, or even three to start with, but oh well.  This shit might be good for other cuts, too, if someone in the family gets hurt.

You know what?  I think I am rambling.  I am sure no one really cares about what size gauze we bought, but I feel better just rambling on.  It helps me deal.  I was so stressed before, I went into Ryan's room and played my favorite video game for a couple of hours.  That helped me relax.  I am such a video game junkie, especially when I find a game I like.

Tomorrow my grandmother is coming up from Florida.  I am looking forward to seeing her.  It's been a while, and the kids are excited, too.  But, with Brandi running a temperature, we'll have to see if we'll be going over there (to mom's) tomorrow.  I think, and don't yell at me, that she got too much sun yesterday (we were in the pool all day).  She didn't burn (she had on tons of sunscreen) but I think she might have just overheated herself.  So, from now on, I will limit her, and my, time in the pool.  It's just so nice being in the water.

My sunburn is looking great!  I peeled, then peeled again, and now I am getting tan.  Trust me, though.  I am wearing a lot of sunscreen, too.

My weight?  Frustrating.  I was sure that once I started swimming, the weight would come off.  But it's not.  My sister recently posted some pictures from our Tennessee trip, and I was in a few of them.  I hate having my picture taken.  I HATE it.  I hate my mouth and my smile.  (I am not fishing for compliments about how beautiful I am...I know I'm beautiful...but that doesn't mean that I can't hate something about myself)  Anyway...I look fat in the pictures.  Not as fat as I was last year, but still fat.  I have so much more weight to lose, and I want to be on the right track, but it is so hard!  I love to eat as much as I hate having my picture taken.  I have been trying to eat better, and I have been.  But I still slip, especially when chocolate and peanut butter are involved.

God, this is turning into a whiny post now, isn't it?  I think I might need to go to bed.  I can always set the alarm to get up and give Junior his medicine. 

If you made it to the end of this post, well, that must mean you love me. :)

I Didn't See This Coming

I started doing this paid posting thing about eight months ago. At first, it was fun making money while being home with the kids. Today, my brain is fried. There are days where the opps are slow coming, and then there are days like today where there are so many my head feels like it will explode. I am in no way complaining, because we need the money, but I just don't have anything else to write about today. My brain is fried. That said, I have something to say.

The weirdest thing happened today. Junior was sitting in the van on break, eating breakfast this morning when his dad pulled up beside him. He asked Junior if we wanted to come to a cook out at his house.

WTF?

We haven't had anything to do with this man for almost a year, and he wants us to come over and have a cookout? Junior told him no, obviously. Now, had Junior said yes, we would have gone. This whole thing with his family was his decision, as much as certain people would like to blame me. I am supportive of my husband, no matter what he decides.

Painful

Today was painful. My sunburn is developing these nice little water blisters...so gross. I swear, I don't know how this happened. I was in the shade almost the entire day. I have learned my lesson though, I can tell you that much. We went to walmart and got some burn pain relief spray, and that helps some. I just thank God that Brandi asked my sister to put sunscreen on her, or she would be burned, too. Ryan and Kasi's shoulders are a little red, but nothing like me.

I am finally feeling human again with the girlie stuff. Yay!

Have I told you guys about Junior's new position at work? I can't remember. If so, just skip this part...I'll forgive you! lol! If I haven't, I guess I should. Junior got a promotion of sorts at work. It's not more money, but a better job and better hours. Instead of being a sales associate, he is now an inventory specialist. This means no more lifting lumber everyday, so his back should feel better. He doesn't have to deal with customers unless they ask him specifically for help, which is good, cause he hated that part of his job. And the best part is that he will work from 5am until 2 pm, Monday through Friday. That means no more weekends! I am so happy about this, especially with summer coming up, and the kids will be home, so we can do a lot together, like fishing and stuff. We are hoping to get our bills caught up...we seem to be getting further and further behind...so that we can plan our vacation soon. I want to go camping for a week or so, but we'll have to see. It may only end up being a day or two. Either way, we will be going camping, just not sure when or for how long.

Oh, and all the "think pink" didn't work so well. My sister is having another boy....that makes four! It's okay, though, because he looks good, has all his parts, and being healthy is really all that is important. I just feel bad for her...she was kind of upset. For me, it means starting a new blanket, cause the one I was making won't do for this baby. I'll just have to hope my other sister has a girl...although she doesn't want to find out beforehand.

I guess that's about it for today. I have some opps to write, so I better get to it. I like to have posts ready to go for those days I just don't feel like writing on the other blogs....keeping them all up and current is hard work! lol!