Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Nine Days Later...

Things have gotten better since my last post.  Thank you so much for all your loving and supportive comments.  It is amazing that I have such wonderful friends who I have never even met.  You guys have no idea how much I appreciate you all.  I seriously love you guys!

As far as I know, my FIL is doing okay.  We actually met with Junior's sister to talk things over, and it seems that he will be unable to get to Junior's work from here on out. That is a wonderful thing.  My husband has breathed a huge sigh of relief, and can now relax at work. 

We went to therapy today, and it was a pretty weird hour.  We started the session talking about the past two weeks, and then ended up talking about my issues with driving and fishing.  It was funny, because we have been seeing Elizabeth for a while now, and today was the first time we touched on my craziness.  I warned her that I have some seriously weird issues, but I don't think she believed me.

For instance, my biggest fear about driving is that I will get into an accident and hurt my kids.  I would NEVER be able to live with myself if that happens, so I don't drive. Weird, yes.  Irrational, absolutely.  But it is what it is.

I also have a hard time letting my kids go places with people who aren't family, because let's face it.  If something terrible was to happen, and that person had to chose between saving my kids life or their own kids life, you know as well as I do that they would chose their own kid.  I would, too. Another weird fear, yup.  Totally irrational, abso-freakin'-lutely.

These are just two of my irrational crazy things.  Trust me, there are many more.  I am insane when it comes to my kids, and I know it.  The good news is that they don't know that I think these things.  I would hate for them to be aware of my issues.

Anyway, we left today's session in a good place mentally and emotionally.  Hopefully we can look forward to two more stress free weeks.  At least that's what I'm hoping for.

8 comments:

Donna said...

Normal....you're not nuts...
Glad things are better!!
hughugs

Dawn said...

I am glad to hear the good things about the work place !! WOOT !!!

I agree with Miz Donna. You aren't crazy !!! You are loved !! :)

Crystal said...

U'll get over all ur fears eventually but until then if they arent griping I wouldn't mention it!

jenn said...

Miss Donna ~ let me assure you, I am most definitely not normal! lol! but thanks for thinking I am :)

jenn said...

Dawn ~ his dad went home today, but is wheelchair bound, so he won't be visiting the store any time in the near future.

jenn said...

Crystal ~ these are issues I have had for YEARS! I think it's being a mom that made me crazy...the thought of anything happening to my kids...shit, those thought can keep me up at night.

Dawn said...

You don't have to publish this, but I am sorry that his Dad is in a wheelchair, but also glad he can't get to Junior anymore !

jenn said...

Dawn ~ we are, too.