Tuesday, March 8, 2011

A Rough Night

Tonight, Kasi had a concert.  We went as a family, and it was soooo hard on me.  As hard as I try, there are still things that upset me, and sitting in the audience, knowing that this is how it is going to be from now on, was more than I could take.  I don't want to have to split the things the kids do...I just need time, and I think that is hard for some people to understand.  Even though I do not want in any way to reconcile with my husband, I am mourning the loss of my marriage.  It is not an easy thing, no matter how upbeat I sound all the time. 

I also have a horrible habit of speaking what is on my mind without really thinking.  I have got to stop doing that.  I find myself continuously apologizing, and it's making me crazy.  I told Bob today that I think I might need to go see my doctor to get some type of nerve pills or something. 

Either that, or I need to learn how to make margaritas at home.


Anonymous said...

Hi Jenn !! It is Dawn. I have forgotten my blogger password. Sounds like we need to talk. I will plug my phone in now and call you right after 10:00 your time, right at 9:01 my time. Hang in there !! *HUGS*

Donna said...

Lottsa Margaritas.....Hahaa

Biz said...

I am with Donna - learn how to make margaritas!!

Hang in there - it has to be tough but you can be strong for both you and your kids :D