Sunday, March 6, 2011

She Let Herself Go

There is this country song that talks about a woman whose husband left, so she let herself go....she let herself do all the things her husband held her back from doing.  I think George Straight sings it, but I'm not sure.

I feel like that woman.

I have been doing so many new things, it's crazy.  Most of you know that I am now driving, though I can only drive with someone for now since I only have my permit.  I have always said that I was afraid to drive, but let me tell you, I am loving it!  I am good at it, too.  My friend Donna has been letting me drive everywhere...I even tackled merging onto the interstate, something I was terrified to do.

I went out, too.  My same friend's brother took us out to eat at a steakhouse (something Bob and I could never afford) and then for drinks at a bar where we listened to a band and I laughed like crazy.  Seriously, I can not remember the last time I had so much fun with adults.

I have been swimming every day at a local pool.  I go with Donna every morning once the kids get on the bus, and spend an hour or two doing laps.  We started last Wednesday, and I can already tell that I am toning up a little.  My legs are a little more flexible, and my pants are a bit loser.  I am sure it has nothing to do with the almost 20 pounds I have lost recently. :)

Oh, I have been wearing makeup, too.  This is something I haven't done the entire time I was married.  (well, I guess I am still technically married...what the hell am I supposed to call him...I'm still a little fuzzy about that) I am actually taking pride in my appearance, and people are noticing.  I like that people notice.  It makes me feel good.

The kids and I are going to continue seeing Elizabeth.  Last week, she spoke to the kids alone for the first time, and I will find out tomorrow what she thinks.  During our session last week, I asked her how much it will cost for us to come, since Bob was going through a free clinic, and I'm not covered to go alone.  She made me cry when she told me that she would see us for a long as we wanted and not charge us anything.  She said she loves us all, and is more interested in us getting better than making money.  I seriously love this woman.  I am looking forward to tomorrows session.

For this week, though, I have got to concentrate on finding a job.  Not one place that I applied to has called yet, and I have to do something.  Any ideas????


StaceyC4 said...

I applied on line with Home Depot and they called. They were one of the only ones in the last 18 months to do so!

jenn said...

well, since bob works at our local home depot, I don't think I'll apply there! lol! Maybe I'll try lowes...

Jeannette said...

That is so great! I'm glad you are feeling better. You deserve it. I wish I had your zeal and confidence.

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