A Big Step For Me

I wore a bathing suit today in front of my mom.  I wasn't even self-conscience, though I probably should have been.  But whatever.  I had fun swimming with the kids in the pool, and that's the important thing.  I didn't sit in the shade and watch the fun...I was a part of it!

You guys have no idea how big a step this was for me. 

Now next weekend, my sister will be there, and we'll see how comfortable I am in front of her.  And then the following weekend, my aunt and Grandmother will be here.  Hopefully by then I won't care who sees me! lol!

Oh, and I should probably mention that I am a freakin' lobster right now.  When will I learn???

'Bout There

Okay, so I have been stressing getting on the scale, what with the weight gain from the past few weeks.  But this morning I sucked it up and weighed myself.

I have two more pounds to lose, and then I am back to the 49 pound loss.  This also means I am three pounds away from a 50 pound loss. 

Three pounds.

Ug.  Seems like so much sometimes...

Hey Ya'll!

That sounded pretty southern, didn't it? LOL!

Anyway, I have been so busy it's not even funny.  My trip to Tennessee was awesome, but since I've been back, the scale has not been my friend.  not only did I not make it to 50, I gained a couple of pounds back.

Ug.

This is such a hard thing to do, but I am not giving up.  I was surprised that i gained weight over my weekend away, because we did a LOT of walking, and not really much eating.  But, what i did eat was very carb heavy, and I think that was my problem.  By the time we were headed home, I was craving something, anything, that wasn't a carb, which is weird for me, because i could live on bread alone.

The following weekend, which was last weekend, we had two parties for Kasi, and at both I ate way too much crap.  Then today we had a cookout at mom's, and I ate way too much.  Again.

The good thing now is that the kids are out of school, and I am getting us all back on track.  I plan on swimming a lot, which I love, and it is also great exercise.  I have to make our food budget stretch, because the kids are no longer eating two meals a day at school.  This means no extra junk in the house. 

This is a good thing.

On a totally unrelated note, I have once again managed to get into some poison oak, and it's driving me crazy!  It's on the inside of both ankles, and a little bit up each calf.  You would think by now I would be more careful, but I still don't know exactly what it looks like.  But like every year (for the past four or five anyway) I will suffer through it.

Hopefully this time it won't spread.

One More To Go!

I lost another pound.  That makes 49.  I really want to lose another pound before our trip this weekend...

Sleep...Where Are You?

I hate insomnia.  I haven't figured out why this happens to me.  It could be that I sleep too late in the mornings.  My typical routine is go to bed between midnight and 1am.  The alarm goes of at 2:15am, and I get Junior up for work.  The alarm goes off again at 5:15am and I get up and get the kids off to school.  I lay back down around 7am, and sleep until 10:15am.  (I find it easier to change the hour three times a day, so I always get up at something 15)  This totals about 8 hours of sleep, if I fall asleep quickly, which doesn't normally happen.  Usually, I get about 6 1/2 hours of sleep a night. 

So tonight (I know it's technically morning, but whatever) I know that I don't have to get up three times in the morning.  I can sleep until my body decides to wake up.  (or until my mother calls...we have plans for tomorrow)  But here I sit.  I am pretty tired, but I can not fall asleep.  I blame all the caffeine I had today.  Usually, I drink diet sprite (or the equivalent store brand) at home, but when we go out, I drink diet coke, because most places don't carry the diet sprite.  Today we did a lot of running around, and I drank a lot of diet coke, which means I had a lot of caffeine. 

Which probably explains why I am still up.

At least I will be able to sleep in on Sunday...

Another Pound Gone!

I'm a little excited right now! 

I just weighed myself, and I lost another pound! 

That makes 48!  Two more pounds to my first goal of losing 50! 

Am I freakin' awesome or what?

Please, Don't Yell At Me

Remember last year, when my wisdom tooth declared war on me, and I ended up in tears in the ER, begging for some relief?  Remember how I was supposed to wait a few weeks for the antibiotics to get rid of the infection, then I was going to have it pulled?

Well, I never did. 

And today, it started up again.  BUT, I took some pain meds pretty quickly, so the pain is under control.  I also had some antibiotics that I could take (I am allergic to penicillin), so i started those.  I am hoping i caught it early enough, and by tomorrow or the next day, it will be fine.

Than maybe in a few weeks (or months) I can have it pulled.