I just finished my first online application for our local grocery store. Brandi is not happy with me, and said if I get a job, she is coming with me to work. I haven't worked since she was an infant, and I know this is going to be hard on her. It's going to be hard on me, too. I get upset just thinking about it. I don't know how we got to where we are right now, and hopefully we can figure something out in the next month so that I won't have to work. We decided that I would wait until June, when school is out, that way Junior doesn't have to deal with homework and supper. Junior says he is going to try and find some metal to haul off, maybe some odd jobs...we just need to come up with about $800, and we'll be okay. Heck, even $500 would help, and might be dooable with side jobs.
Just keep your fingers crossed that we can figure out a way to fix this before I have to go to work. Last time I had a job, at McDonald's, I had a slight breakdown and walked out...I am afraid of that happening again. I cried for days then, I don't know why...I was just so depressed...for no reason that I ever figured out...and now I am worse with my anxiety around new and strange people...this is not going to be fun.