There is this country song that talks about a woman whose husband left, so she let herself go....she let herself do all the things her husband held her back from doing. I think George Straight sings it, but I'm not sure.
I feel like that woman.
I have been doing so many new things, it's crazy. Most of you know that I am now driving, though I can only drive with someone for now since I only have my permit. I have always said that I was afraid to drive, but let me tell you, I am loving it! I am good at it, too. My friend Donna has been letting me drive everywhere...I even tackled merging onto the interstate, something I was terrified to do.
I went out, too. My same friend's brother took us out to eat at a steakhouse (something Bob and I could never afford) and then for drinks at a bar where we listened to a band and I laughed like crazy. Seriously, I can not remember the last time I had so much fun with adults.
I have been swimming every day at a local pool. I go with Donna every morning once the kids get on the bus, and spend an hour or two doing laps. We started last Wednesday, and I can already tell that I am toning up a little. My legs are a little more flexible, and my pants are a bit loser. I am sure it has nothing to do with the almost 20 pounds I have lost recently. :)
Oh, I have been wearing makeup, too. This is something I haven't done the entire time I was married. (well, I guess I am still technically married...what the hell am I supposed to call him...I'm still a little fuzzy about that) I am actually taking pride in my appearance, and people are noticing. I like that people notice. It makes me feel good.
The kids and I are going to continue seeing Elizabeth. Last week, she spoke to the kids alone for the first time, and I will find out tomorrow what she thinks. During our session last week, I asked her how much it will cost for us to come, since Bob was going through a free clinic, and I'm not covered to go alone. She made me cry when she told me that she would see us for a long as we wanted and not charge us anything. She said she loves us all, and is more interested in us getting better than making money. I seriously love this woman. I am looking forward to tomorrows session.
For this week, though, I have got to concentrate on finding a job. Not one place that I applied to has called yet, and I have to do something. Any ideas????